This blog, life, and mindset.

This blog because something has to be both more regular as well as reader-oriented and less about me. What I mean about that is simple. It will still be about me but I mean I have to find a way to be less selfish and gear content toward what can attract more of an audience. I know there’s potential here, so I’m keeping the domain name. I’m just shifting focus on how I can help others with it rather than just a ramble and rant about my life and ending it there. There’s no engaging of the audience with this blog the way I’m currently going with it, so I’ve decided to “shift” it in that aspect. (Plan is in the works.)

Life. Rightfully so. Life should always shift or evolve. That’s what leads to ultimate, real, and long-lasting happiness. Remaining stagnant isn’t happiness. Shifting and evolving IS. There’s not a whole lot to explain about that part. There’s not a marked occurrence that I can pinpoint (Oh, there probably is, I may have just lied). Just a shift…A realization and a lot of devotion is being set aside for this shift in my Life.

And Mindset. Like today… I was working and I was going through the motions in my new-found home-based business and I realized something. I was way off. I wasn’t giving what I was currently working on my ALL. I wasn’t at all. I was half-assing it and mentally complaining about doing it. Whoa Rosie! Don’t do THAT. Everyone does that at times, right?…but Shake IT off! Play some music that moves you! Go outside and breathe some air! Do what you have to do but don’t Not give it your all (double-negative). So when I was aware of my mindset I was able to SHIFT it, be more productive and work with the intention of getting Sh!t done…guess what! I started to get sh!t done. SWEET! and totally worth the cussing!

So tell me… I want to hear from you… and I’ll respond…

What kinds of shifts do you see either happening right now or necessary? Tough stuff, huh? You know the biggest step to act on it is bringing it to surface. Calling it out…

I look forward to hearing from you! Stay gorgeous, Gorgeous.

But guess what the reality is… I’m a terrific procrastinator. I will successfully put anything off until the last possible moment that I would need to get started in order to finish it. In short, it gets done…yeah. But what am I really doing in the mean time while putting it off? Think about this Rosie. (I talk to myself VERY often). So think about this. You know you’re going to wait to get that done. You fill in the gap of that waiting time with something else anyways. Whether or not the substitute task is productive or not. Like, I was just talking to a friend of mine who can relate. (maybe another sufferer of procrastination) and we both agreed that the best time to really get down and clean our homes is …when? When? When it’s falling apart and is calling for your attention? NOPE. Not then. The answer is… It’s going to get done when I have something else, perhaps more pressing, that I’m supposed to be doing.

What a marvelous discovery. MarVeLoUS! It’s not at all marvelous but, doing the math, it can be. The missing equation here is simply that I do need to add more to my plate. Stop babying myself and just stop saying, “Not It”.

I really am implementing this. I am going through a huge growing phase. like self growth. So I know this new understanding of myself can only help me out big time. That’s not why I’m here though. I didn’t just HAVE to share about this huge growing experience for me. No, the real reason is I have a paper due in less than an hour. That’s why I’m really here. Sad. It totally is what it is, but I’m determined to fill up that plate of mine. IF things aren’t going to get done anyways one great thing to come out of it is that I will fill in these gaps with other great things.

Wow. what. a. concept.

Anyways, I can’t find my glasses. I can barely see the screen now, but those polynomial equation things have me really straining to figure out which number/letter it is, and you know, I just can’t afford to compromise my vision. Not at my age.

I’m really annoyed with the last post. That it was so long ago (not its fault, I know), and that the pictures were placed that way. I’ve already made a mental note not to use the iPad for posting unless the app is improved. Ahh, technology… here, I’ll rant about it: I have a love/hate relationship going on right now. I sometimes want to throw my phone in the garbage disposal. It bugs me all day. Now the school has a way to send me up-to-the-minute updates about all things school. I don’t like how often I roll my eyes at my phone. I used to enjoy it so much. Then there’s these reminders I’ve set up for myself. “You have to be on a schedule,” I said to myself. Everyone else is doing it and look how productive they are. Well you know what? If I’m truly enjoying my hot cup of tea or coffee and listening to the birds and my kids run around outside, I don’t want to be reminded that I haven’t wiped down the counters, cleaned out my sink of dirty dishes, swept, start washing machine. I’m obeying these reminders because I paid money for the stupid app, and because I know it works, so I drop whatever it is I’m enjoying doing and I do what my phone says. Usually.  I have to find a solution to this. Yes, I’m more productive, my home is a little less messy; but now I HATE my phone!!

There is a system by someone called the FlyLady that I am going to attempt to adopt. That website is really cluttered and I don’t like it, but I thought I’d link since I was mentioning it. Besides that though, the system seems good for me. And it involves mostly real paper and a pen, so I can go back to using my phone only for leisure and get back to the loving relationship I once had with it. I may or may not try this out. I may or may not write about it.

I feel better tonight. This wasn’t a complete waste of time because I actually enjoy doing this. Plus I’ll do anything to get out of (blegh) homework (blegh).

Yay!!!

Wow, I can’t really ramble comfortably with this keyboard. Might be a good thing.

I actually saw a keyboard made by zaggmate that I want. It’s a case too and connects via Bluetooth so no wires. And it’s a hundredbucks. I want it.

Uhhh… So what I really wanted to accomplish with this is to say I feel like I did get some stuff checked off on my winter break to-do list. I did lose those 15 lbs I wanted to. Please stay gone. And I got plenty of family time in too.

School starts tomorrow for me. (today cuz it’s 1am) and just in time my Mac won’t charge up and it looks like I need a charger and in order for it to be covered under Best Buy’s protection plan I gotta send it away for 2weeks. Eh. I’ll use the iPad and Edgar’s laptop for homework. But I did also clean out iTunes and declutter pictures, just didn’t back up the Mac or clean up the external.

I have a twitter account.

I don’t use it much yet.

Okay, with that I will just go because this has turned out to seem like I’m competing for a prize for blog post of *most random* or *least sense*

Ah, and I can’t post a pic, can I? I look forward to the picture selection part of the post!

I might be able to…

Nope. I couldn’t. I’ll edit later to add them. They are of some organized closets and a clean garage. I know. Exciting.

In the next week:

Clean out and organize every closet in the house.
Clean the garage
Tackle that pile of paper clutter in the kitchen that’s been bothering me

In subsequent weeks I should:

Clean out iTunes
Back up my MacBook
(oh and clean up the external. that thing is cluttered.)
Go through at least the most current of my 50 gigs of pics (delete multiple/blurry pics)

In general, the boys are done with soccer and they aren’t enrolled in any winter sport, so I/we can take them (and the girls) out for evening outside time. They really liked that, Rosie, don’t be lazy about it! I will get on a Cardio Routine which can definitely include the evening classes at the gym. Wow, that would be great for me! Edgar’s not going anywhere or leaving for any classes or anything so I need to take advantage of this time to get my head right and lose 15 lbs.

There’s a whole lot more I can think of that I want to do, but I can safely say that I’m committed to these things. Besides, the normal day to day stuff doesn’t exactly allow for more *time* but my head will be much more clear cuz of the no homework thing.

I just checked off Finish-my-Smirnoff from the list and I’m feeling so productive with my time already!!

Case in point. Today while talking with my kid’s teacher and another staff member: They were discussing politics. That should have been a red flag for me to get outta there, but nope. The teacher said something like can you believe Brown only beat Whitman by a few percentage points! I didn’t have much to say here, Everyone hated Whitman, big deal. But then the staff member says, “Yeah I was on edge about Prop 19″. Where I should have shut up I said, “Yeah I know, too bad it didn’t pass.” “heh,” …Let me sink into this miniature chair right here. Damn it! There’s no where to hide! These people are mandated reporters here! Really, Rosie. And those sharp looks and that silence could have cut me in half.

But I didn’t even mean it like that. Prop 19 in California was intended to legalize Marijuana. I just wrote a paper on the topic of the principles of drug addiction. This stuff was sorta fresh in my head. The real evidence was pretty compelling. The fact is that marijuana was incorrectly labeled a narcotic and made illegal for less than scientifically or medically correct reasons and false rumors about the effects spread like madness. And that’s what lead to it being outlawed. I have the citations* for this somewhere, I’m not just making it up. Not to mention the health hazards of marijuana compared to some legal drugs like alcohol and tobacco. They can’t even compare. All this was what prompted my response to the Prop 19 comment. I don’t smoke, damnit! Did I say all of this? No. I think my phone dinged or I saw something shiny that caught my attention and I was outta there. But the staff like me, I now they didn’t really judge me for it. It was just an example of a time I should have just shut up.

So… that’s a wrap. The case of the missing foot. Ooooh, I like pictures, Let’s see if I can find a good one.

*Pinel, J. (2007) Basics of Biopsychology. Pearson Education: Allyn & BAcon. (It’s in chapter 13 about Addiction if you ever find the textbook..I don’t have a website on this)

A good one of my dad

So I need to

Make a calendar
Make a to do list

I have these two already. But I want to also

Make a mental note to follow them.

There.

Now that the obvious was posted here, and I spent some glorious moments envisioning what it would be like to follow a schedule, I will get back to what I’m supposed to be doing.

turtles are slow too

(Weighed 7lbs, 5 oz. and was 20 inches in length.)

Everything about her arrival was such a blessing. I don’t plan on going into any extreme detail, not here and pretty much not ever. All the birthing details are almost completely erased from my memory anyway, but seriously I am so blessed that everything went so smoothly the night I went into the hospital.

I was extra blessed to have 2 of my sisters, Shirley and Jennie (1 biological, and the other married into the fam, respectively) by my side for such an emotional and scary ride. There is so much that can go wrong in that delivery room and everything went right. My baby girl made this pretty simple for me…I mean right down to her date of birth. It’s 1/10/10…I should have no problem remembering that, it’s great.

Here’s some scattered mementos of the event.

Mementos? yeah, mementos.

Proud daddy, right there.

It came to me that I should probably begin posting again because I looked at the last few blog entries about my Mia being on timeout and the video of Ethan telling the story about his dream… A lot has changed since then and I know I will enjoy looking back at the chronicle-ing of all these life changes. It’s all happening so fast! Too fast.